ok, just to explain a little about how subversive it is to me to smoke a cigarette in my bedroom...

I'm a single child (what explains a lot about the rest!) and all my life I've been surrounded by different types of control. Ok, it's not THAT bad. But things like not having company to play a game, whatever it was, used to bothered me a lot. And when I mean A LOT, add some 15 years of frustation and procrastination of many things that has been affected my life, so far. Maybe some psycologist could have been required in the middle of the process, but for my parents it was such a waste of time.
I never had the chance to speak my mind on a appropriate way. Swallowing words, I'm pretty good at that! I used to take dance classes from my 3 to my 14 years old and for me it never was just about the dance. It was a chance for me to get in front of a crowd and show them what the little girl here does the best. That was me making communication. But in this life, you can't have it all..so I had to quit it.
I've tried to tell mom and dad that it was what i really loved to do, but it wasn't enough. I didn't dance anymore. Excepted when "At night I lock the doors, where no one else can see" (thanks for that, madonna!).
And so it is until nowadays.
But then I decided to choose some title for this blog and start something different.
Something new..something ME.
My parents hate smoking. Me and my dad have some nose issues and smoking was something to never think of doing. I broke the law, sent my good and healthy habits to the trash and started this self-control-helpful-and-great-way-to-not-eat-when-I'm-sad activity last year.
My mom found out a couple of mounths ago. She said that she didn't want me doing that crap inside the house. As a respected child, I followed the rule.
But today...well...if you've read the previal post you'll understand that I was in such a hurry!
Writing and smoking was a really great combination for me. Now I understand better the fellas aka Carrie and Bridget!
Maybe it'll become a hobby.
Maybe I'll write a book.

And maybe when I'll do this with my door unlocked, I 'll reach the Nirvana!